Monday, March 17, 2008

On Being A Grandma - So Wonderful!

Yep, I am a grandmother! My grandson, Asher Avery was born on March 11. He weighed a whopping 8 lbs, 14.4 oz. He is adorable. I can't stop thinking about him! I can't believe how hard it was to leave to come home, knowing that I won't see him for weeks. I can't get over this new love in my life - it's really something you can't prepare yourself for, and can't explain - but it's wonderful!

Unfortunately my petite daughter needed to have a c-section in order to bring this wonder into the world and it hasn't been easy for either of them, but they are doing their thing and doing it quite well! She and Mark are going to be wonderful parents, and it is going to be so much fun for me to be able to spoil their little darling. I've been a little blocked about making a quilt for him, but the ideas are coming fast and furious now, and I'm sure that he will have a very special quilt in no time at all. I want to make something special to be cherished, and lots of fun somethings to drag around and enjoy (and destroy!).

WITW - Week 7 - Discovering a Sense of Momentum

Well, with all this giving birth stuff going on, I have lost my momentum, but I hope to regain it by catching up with my check-ins and moving forward! Lots and lots of underlining in this chapter! I started cleaning up my sewing room, but never got that finished. Have been thinking on getting out some of the UFOs to work on, but everything has been so crazy that I haven't been able to deal with it. Little by little I have been finishing the urgent projects, but then I find myself at loose ends and not doing anything but playing solitaire, or watching bad tv. I do have so much I want to do, but I'm just having a hard time getting going on any of these projects, so I am going back to cleaning up my sewing room, and getting the clutter under control.

The geography task was horrible for me. I have come to the realization that I do not allow myself to dream or think of these kinds of things. I feel like I always have to be so focused on what is going on around me right here and right now, that I don't think about anything else. I really have a hard time allowing myself to have any pleasure in experiencing something different because there are so many things that I am responsable for and if I can't take care of those, then I don't deserve to do anything else. My live is so focused on taking care of my family that I am not taking care of myself, but I feel guilty and selfish if I do anything just for me. It's a hard thing to figure out how to nourish myself without throwing everyone else into chaos.

The task on learning to navigate the learning curve was interesting. I can do a lot of things, and I have confidence in doing them. If I don't think I can do it, I don't do it - period! But I did clip the dog's nails. And it wasn't all that bad, she was really good, and didn't even hold it against me that I did clip one down too far. And it wasn't the end of the world! I suppose I need to challenge myself to learn to do some new things even if I don't think I can!

I've been doing the morning pages most of the time. Don't seem to be able to do them away from home, but if I'm at home I don't have any trouble getting them done, even with my husband at home for the last two weeks! Walking hasn't gone well, and neither have Artist Dates, but I'm going to work on those two things. Now, I am going to go do some filing in the sewing room - I think I'll feel better when I get things in order!

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